Chasing a dream

by sman_59 July 8th 2009, 5:02 pm

Chasing a Dream

Some may call it foolis,
and this i wont deny
I always make certain mistakes,
with no ryhme or reason why

Time seems to be passing me by
gliding away lile a silver wing bird
Im afraid to realize it
So I dismiss this notion, as absurd

My mask of confidence
looses pieces ast the days go by
I stand bare, and finally
realize in relationships, Im shy

The mask has worked well
with it on, I feel no pain
Today I question
was it worn in vain?

When it comes to matters of the heart
I am rather simple
I face the fact, im a hopeless romantic
and thats so undeniable

Im a good actor
I often pretend to be heartless
Truth is..deep inside...
I know this path is hopeless

I often shadowbox
with the man staring at me in the mirror
I polish the glass everyday
but the picture never gets, clearer

He and I both chase the same dream
one telling the other its a fantasy
One wants to be in love
one says, "that can never happen to me"

Dream or fantasy
what really sets them apart?
Is one a function of the mind?
and the other a function of the heart?

I slam the door on one
and try to embrace the other
Why is it so hard to evolve
from a man to a lover?

To others i may seem
as if Im comfortable in this shell
Maybe im atoning for my sins
Here in my own personal hell

A hopeless romantic I may be
Damn! thats so outdated and out of fashion
Sorta like the words
Love, Hope, Trust, Fate, and lets not forget Passion

Call me old fashion,
cause these are the qualities I embrace
However....do not judge me
from the value of my face

Understand its, just a coating
that to some, hopefully it may please
However no one can hear me
when i pray to God on my knees

I ask him..for one thing
the only real thing of value
The dream I chase..
when one love is shared by two

Chasing this dream
I know I may travel a lonesome road
But I will go it alone
if that is to be my goal

There have been other travelers
ones I have come acroos on this path
We share conversations from time to time
but, then they turn there back and laugh

Maybe I have done the same
to some traveler, that i may not desire
I just hope our time together
has raised our mindscapes higher

Even while writing this
I have no one in mind it may seem
If thats what u think right now
then you may also be CHASING A DREAM

LeShaumby T. May
Leaving Las Vegas
5-2- 2000